And I like it that way. ^-^

Ever just wanted to shout something out at the top of your lungs, but you know you can't? Yeah, that's kinda how it is...

I can't even find a way to describe how I feel...maybe it's confusion...I have no idea if I can manage making an Anime Club for NSCC, I know for certain I can't do my planned idea for Anime Boston [for the artist alley], and who's to say I can even go to Anime Boston this year?! I have no money whatsoever, because it was spent on the costume I WOULD be cosplaying as if I CAN go!! So I lost there too!! I dunno, maybe this is the inevitable college stress I've heard so much about...I shouldn't even stress out this much though...but hey, it's always been how my life worked...

I'm tired...and hungry...I have no cash, or else I'd go to the cafe and buy a sandwich...or at least a drink...no, I gotta wait 2 hours before I can eat anything...

But other than the whole rant there, I've been in a fair/foul mood...got my costume almost all set. I'm cosplaying Miles Edgeworth of Phoenix Wright [because he is my crack] and all I need left is the cravat and the wig, which I will be getting some time this week. I'll have pictures up soon. I made up a new DeviantArt account that I will be using for my Illustrator animations and graphics. I already have a comic up so far. If you want the name of the new account, note me.

Life at home has been...eh...typical. I want out, but I think now that I'm 18 and on a joint lease in the apartment, dad's giving me some more respect. I have a job interview at Macy's tomorrow that I really hope will go well. I NEEEEEEED a job, cause I'm desperate for cash and I will kill myself if I can't afford to go to Anime Boston this year. But I've already been over that.

Sorry for the whole rant here. I just needed to get a few things off my chest that have been bugging me to no end. Maybe I should update my journal more often, so things like this won't happen. x'D

Pros:

1. Actually getting out of the house for a few hours a day.

2. A cafeteria that serves ramen, coffee, packaged sandwiches, all different sodas, snacks and microvave items in their vending machines.

3. Meeting up with new people and making new memories.

4. More freedom and less restrictions than high school.

5. Early releases are almost guaranteed.


Cons:

1. Long classes still.

2. Homework.

3. Homework.

4. Homework.

5. Homework.

6. Missing high school friends.

7. Homework.

8. Huge textbooks to carry.

9. Homework.

10. Homework.

11. Only allowed 3 absences.

12. HOMEWORK!!!

Now...is it a bad thing that's the biggest thing I'm excited about today? Well, I don't care, cause it's a big thing for me!!! I'm 18 now! I can buy my own scratch tickets!! AND AND AND AND!!! 18+ PANELS AT THE CONS!!!!!! I can finally see what they're like!!! Plus I can get out of the house without my dad constantly breathing down my neck! ^^ Wow...I guess I'm excited about alot of things today...

Man, I didn't know I would be this excited on becoming 18...but I am!!! I really am! Although right now I feel half dead and just wanna go to sleep. But no, a little more than a week away and I'm there!!! n.n CAN'T WAIT!!!!!